My guest today has returned a second time. Welcome Carol Graham.
For as long as I can remember, I wanted to be a mother. I was born with health issues that were often debilitating and sometimes caused me to wonder if my life would be cut short by disease.
God had promised my husband and I that we would have a family. No matter how sick I became or how great the emotional struggle was, I knew God would fulfill His promise. It was 14 years of applying faith to my pain but I consistently reminded God of the Word he spoke to my heart.
Then I got the phone call from a gynecologist's office informing me he had a diagnosis. There is one word in any language that is difficult to hear. That word is -- cancer.
“Carol, basically you have two choices and I think it is obvious which one you will choose!” I assumed he meant two types of treatment. He continued, “Your choices are hysterectomy or death.” He paused for impact. “You are a very sick young woman.”
Strength and faith welled up inside of me and I said “No! I do not accept those choices. There has to be another way! I will find that alternative.”
I had challenged his intelligence. He rose up from behind his desk, leaned towards me and pointed his finger in my face. He was so angry he was shooting spit when he said, “Well then, lady, go home, suffer and…….die!”
I stood up, spun on my heel and started out of the room. Then I paused, turned, and said in a loud staccato voice, enunciating each syllable clearly. “I... will.... walk.... in here.... pregnant.... one day.” I couldn’t believe the words that came out of nowhere. But in my heart, I knew I was going to succeed. Nothing was going to stop me. I almost screamed out loud “ENOUGH, not this time.” Hysterectomy – I don’t think so. Death? Not my time yet.
About three weeks later, I was introduced to natural food supplements. I changed my diet and started my new food regime. In less than a week I was feeling better. I researched and took every course on nutrition I could find. I was determined to improve my health.
It was the middle of March, 14 years later, when I made an appointment with the same doctor.
“Hello, Carol. It has been a while since I have seen you. Why did you decide to come now?”
“I haven't had a physical for a long time and figured I should.” He examined me, left the room and said he would return shortly when he got the lab results from my urine sample. It was a full half hour when the doctor walked back into the examining room.
“Carol, I am very sorry to inform you, but you are very pregnant.” His head was down as if he were ashamed.
I stood up. “Yes, doctor, I...am...sure.... you... are... very... sorry... to.... inform... me. You obviously remember the words you spoke to me the last time I was here.”
I was not prepared in any way for the next words that came out of his mouth. Trying to gain his composure and his rightful position, he stood up and whispered a shout, “Who is the father?” He threw the words at me, the same way he had all those years ago.
He must have remembered, or read it in my file, that my husband, Paul, was also sterile. However, Paul had received a report some months earlier of healthy sperm. I wanted to get out of that awful room which reeked of pharmaceuticals. He left and I never saw him again.
I spent six months in the hospital with five major complications to this pregnancy. Weekly, the doctors would give me negative reports. The doctors warned me that if this baby survived, he/she would never be normal. He/she would probably be born with Cystic Fibrosis and weigh under two pounds, among other complexities.
Six weeks before my C-section was scheduled I woke up at 4:45 in the morning with intense pain. “Dear God, help me now. Save my baby.”
Inside of me, a battle was raging. “What if the baby does not live? What if the baby is not normal?” I had to constantly choose not to believe the lies and stay focused on the truth of God’s promises. He would never leave me. He would honor His word spoken to my heart.
It was only a matter of minutes when the doctor announced, “You got what you wanted. V is for Victory.” I was not sure what he meant by that. He immediately held up my daughter for me to see her and I began to sob.
“See the V on her forehead?” The nurse was holding her close to my face. “That is for victory. She is perfect. A perfect 10 on the Apgar score and she weighs six pounds, six ounces which is amazing for a baby born six weeks early.”
My baby girl defied all the laws of negativity and is now the proud mom of two children.
As a result of that diagnosis of cancer over 40 years ago, I became a Certified Health Coach and Symptomologist. I have helped hundreds of women realize optimum health. The community has labeled me Dr. Fertility as I have had the unique privilege of giving hope to women who had lost all hope of ever having a child.
It all began with a determination to believe the good report of the Word of God and never letting go, no matter what happened.
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ABOUT AUTHOR CAROL GRAHAM
Carol Graham is an award-winning author of "Battered Hope," talk show host for her bi-weekly show “Never Ever Give Up Hope,” international keynote speaker, jewelry store owner and a certified health coach. Carol has five grandchildren and has rescued over 30 dogs. Her goal is to share hope and encouragement.
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