I was looking for a miracle. I’ll admit
that miraculous answers to prayer in my life have been few and far between, but
I’ve had them, and a miracle was most definitely what I needed now. My family had
erupted into a volatile mess. Our finances were dwindling and my health wasn’t
that great either. I prayed, oh I prayed for that miracle.
In the meantime, inspired by Ann Voskamp’s One Thousand Gifts, I started a notebook
of gratitude. At first, it seemed laughable. Give thanks? I couldn’t even
breathe.
But as I took my daily walks, I began to
wake to things that had slipped by unnoticed in my focus on my many pressing
problems. The way the massive oak tree on the creek slimmed into a silhouette
at dusk. The mother egret guarding her chicks with her wings. The smell of
baking apples coming from a neighbor’s house. Gentle sunshine warming me into a
sense of well-being. My walks began to seem full of little gifts from the hand
of God.
For months prayer had been impossible. You
know how Charlie Brown’s teacher speaks: “Wah, wah, woh, wah, wah.” That’s what
reading the Bible had become for me. There was just too much static in my head
to make sense of God’s words. But I began to make a scrapbook of my favorite
scriptures and illustrate them with pictures I found on Google Images. Somehow,
cutting, pasting and illustrating the lines of comfort and promise made them speak
again. I interspersed the lines of scripture with poetry, quotes and snippets
from my book of gratitude. That scrapbook kept me going.
There were no lightning strikes. My prayers
didn’t bring healing to my family or financial situation. It became increasingly clear that there would
be no miracle on a silver platter. But as time went by, I began to hear again,
see again, feel again. I could pray again. Here and there, I felt good again
because
I knew God was beside me, faithful in the midst of chaos.
Hearing of miracles from men and women who
have fed orphans and smuggled Bibles and overcome drug habits builds my faith
to no end. But I’ve experienced the daily miracles of fallen leaves the color
of wine, restoring psalms and long lunch dates with my
sister. Whatever life is, it is sacred.
About the author and her debut novel
The Language of Sparrows:
Brilliant and fluent in too
many languages to count, 15-year-old Sierra Wright can't seem to communicate
what is important to her in any language.
Though April Wright stubbornly keeps
an upbeat attitude about her daughter's future, she has let her own dreams slip
away. Just across the bridge lives old Luca, scarred from his time in a
Romanian gulag years before. Though he has seemingly given up on people, Sierra
is drawn to him despite his prickly edges.
No one else is comfortable with the unpredictable old man spending time alone with Sierra, not even Luca's son. Yet it is this unconventional relationship that will bring two families together to form friendships and unearth their family stories, stories that just might give them all the courage to soar on wings toward a new future.
No one else is comfortable with the unpredictable old man spending time alone with Sierra, not even Luca's son. Yet it is this unconventional relationship that will bring two families together to form friendships and unearth their family stories, stories that just might give them all the courage to soar on wings toward a new future.
Bio:
As the daughter of
missionaries, Rachel Phifer grew up in Malawi, South Africa and Kenya, and
managed to attend eleven schools by the time she graduated from high school.
Books, empty notebooks and cool pens were her most reliable friends as she
moved from one place to another. She holds a B.A. in English and psychology, and lives in Houston with her family.
Website: www.rachelphifer.com
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