Sunday, August 23, 2009

SUMMER OF MY CONTENT--Guest Blogger, Linore Rose Burkard

My guest this morning is a published author friend, Linore Rose Burkard. I am so very excited to tell you that she has just had her second novel released by Harvest House, The House in Grosvenor Square. It is another delightful romp into Regency England, the second story following the romance of Ariana and Philip Mornay. You can read my review of Linore's first novel, Before the Season Ends in an earlier post by clicking on my blog label at the far right, "My Book Reviews".

For anyone who loves Jane Austen, you will find your soul enriched by Linore's latest, a fresh new story written in that long-beloved style. It's a delight to read and wonder if the young Ariana will ever make it to the altar to marry her dear Philip, or will one of the numerous abduction attempts of her succeed? Like Jane Austen, Linore combines suspense, deft humor, and a thorough knowledge of the period to weave a story around the reader, whisking them away for a short time to Regency England.

But authors, especially Christian authors like Linore, write from the depth of their personal soul. What they learn about God is transported from their lives into their fictional stories. However, below is a true story of Linore's post partum depression, and of how the Lord met her and comforted her during that time. I hope her true-to-life story as well as her novels will encourage you in your faith in Christ.

THE SUMMER OF MY CONTENT: By Linore Rose Burkard

When our family moved from Nassau County, Long Island, out to eastern Suffolk in the early 90's, we were leaving a time of great difficulty for me. Following the birth of our second child, I descended into a nightmarish postpartum depression that was emotionally and physically depleting.

After an adolescence fraught with anxiety, loneliness, and panic attacks, this was the worst thing to hit me yet. Making matters worse, the depression had not been diagnosed properly, and lack of the right treatment meant I suffered far longer than I should have. It was during this time that we bought our new house, in which I hoped to have a new beginning--in more ways than one.

The older couple that had owned the home before, had, over time, transformed much of the single acre plot into a myriad of small patches of gardens. Their intentions were good, but the result was prickly rose bushes where room was needed to walk, random shrubs about the yard, and individual plantings of ground covers juxtaposed against each other in odd arrangements.

We had two small children when we moved in--an infant and a toddler--and two more were to come before we would outgrow that home and leave it, nearly nine years later. But back then, with my children nearby, I devoted my energies at first to transplanting and concentrating the existing flowers, shrubs and ground covers into a couple of well-defined plots. The multiple parcels that had been carefully weeded and cleared by my predecessors were just too much for me to keep up, and we wanted some large, open areas.

Over time, even the fewer areas that I had preserved became more than enough for me to maintain. I sometimes lamented to my family that the yard work was too demanding, and I chastised myself for weeds that had not been pulled, plants that needed pruning, or edging that was getting fuzzy with growth.

In addition, well meaning neighbors who were nature enthusiasts (to the point of never mowing, never pulling a weed, and, in short, having the worst looking plot of ground imaginable), shook their heads if I removed a bush or shrub, even to transplant it. And, no matter how hard I tried, my efforts never came close to producing the profusion of blooms or vegetables of their garden. I wasn't competing, but I had the feeling they were! I just wanted the simple pleasures of flowers--their beauty, their scents, their colorful presence.

Yearning for better results, I settled upon the front garden as the one area I would maintain meticulously. With the children, I started our own seedlings in long, green trays, and it was like having pets in the house. We placed the trays above the refrigerator for warmth, watched them lovingly until the sprouts appeared, and then removed the plastic with a sense of undeniable satisfaction--the wonder of creation, still at work, right before our eyes!

When the seedlings were ready, and the danger of frost past, the children joined me in transplanting them to our front, prize, garden bed.

I am not, and was not then, a green thumb. Visitors sometimes admired our flowers, but whenever I drove around the neighborhood, I marveled at the profusion of blooms other people seemed to achieve so easily. My flowers were pretty, but there never seemed to be enough of them for the effect I wanted, no matter how much I planted.

When I became pregnant with my third child, I felt a great deal of trepidation before the birth, fearing the onset of another depression. Many people prayed for me. Two special friends even agreed to pray for me every single day throughout the pregnancy. Of course, I also prayed long and hard myself--and Matthew, born at 9 lbs., was a glowing testimony to all that prayer.

He was what we called a "dream baby," sleeping through the night, seldom crying, and always easily contented. He happily sat in his baby seat while I planted yet another year's trays of seedlings into the chunky, brown earth in my garden. I had purchased an organic fertilizer and had prepared the soil with it before planting--but I wasn't expecting anything more than the usual mediocre results of my efforts.

At my doctor's instruction before Matt was born, I agreed to forgo breastfeeding in favor of uninterrupted sleep, in order to prevent another post-partum episode. Mercifully, my hormones did not rise up and engulf me in a wild, frightful darkness of anxiety and fear. But I missed nursing; there was always a special closeness that I relished while nursing a baby.

Meantime, my seedlings were growing at a delightful pace. We marveled at how they would change noticeably, overnight. By summer, I had a thriving, plush, flower bed, the bright yellows and oranges of marigolds lightening the appearance of the yard--and my days. The truly amazing thing, though, were the begonias. Their little clusters of blooms grew, and grew, and grew. No one could believe that these flowers were ordinary. When they just about reached my waist, they finally ceased expanding. Their blooms made a pillow-top canopy of pink, white and red, hiding the tall, leggy, unsightly stems underneath. To my surprise, none of our guests recognized what they were, despite the fact that the flowers were exactly the same, only higher.

A day of real triumph came when our neighbor, the undisputed green thumb, organic gardener and nature expert extraordinaire, came and admired my flowers. "What are these?" he asked, and my eyes lit up like a sparkler on the fourth of July.

"You can't tell?" I asked, relishing the fact that even HE was stumped. He looked again, and shook his head. "They're begonias!" I was smiling from ear to ear. "Really?!" he said. "I didn't know they could grow so big."

The amazing thing is, they don't. Not usually--and they never have, for me, again. But they were there, then, blooming determinedly, like my life. Pushing up their faces, covering over the leggy stems. Leaving the dark earth behind for the sun.

Somehow, the whole of that summer soothed my rough-edged past. I knew that the hard days, at least for now, were over. The Lord was granting me a time of rest and refreshment. And I drank it in like a dried up plot of soil, ready to bloom.

©2009 Linore Rose Burkard
Linore Rose Burkard now lives in Ohio with her husband and five children on 3 acres, part of which she struggles to keep in bloom! She is the author of “BEFORE THE SEASON ENDS,” and THE HOUSE IN GROSVENOR SQUARE, (“Inspirational Romance for the Jane Austen Soul”). If you’re ready to be transported to Regency England, hop on over to her website at: www.LinoreRoseBurkard.com
If you would like to order one of her books, here are a number of online sites for you to do so.http://www.linoreburkard.com/blog_toolkit.html#purchase

3 comments:

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Linore -

I can relate to being less than a green thumb. My garden is already limping along toward fall.

Thanks for sharing your experience and how the Lord brought healing to your heart.

Great post, Christine!

Blessings,
Susan :)

Keli Gwyn said...

Linore, how lovely that the Lord used the beauty of some ordinary begonias to work healing in your heart after your difficult time.

DebbieLynne said...

What a beautiful story Linore!

Love Ya!
Debbielynne